It all starts on Thursday where I arrived at my friend Crystal’s house. We joked around and stuff while also playing Kingdom Hearts 1. It was my first time “really” playing it. Back in middle school, one of my friends introduced me to the game, but I only got three minutes into it before I had to leave to go home. So it was awesome to finally experience it! Soraaaa~ ;W;

Then Friday came!

 

( Read more for fangirling~ )

 

I know I don't post here that much...

T-Though... I just wanted to let you guys know that I entered a contest and I was wondering if anyone would like to help and vote for me? ;W;

http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/survey/190/
"Savior - Katsu Koneko"

http://katsu14.deviantart.com/art/HigaEden-Contest-Savior-203280899
Here's my entry if you are interested in seeing it.

Sankyuu ;W; <3

Apparently I'm True Neutral. oWo

I Am A: True Neutral Human Bard (2nd Level)


Ability Scores:

Strength-11

Dexterity-12

Constitution-12

Intelligence-11

Wisdom-11

Charisma-9


Alignment:
True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.


Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.


Class:
Bards often serve as negotiators, messengers, scouts, and spies. They love to accompany heroes (and villains) to witness heroic (or villainous) deeds firsthand, since a bard who can tell a story from personal experience earns renown among his fellows. A bard casts arcane spells without any advance preparation, much like a sorcerer. Bards also share some specialized skills with rogues, and their knowledge of item lore is nearly unmatched. A high Charisma score allows a bard to cast high-level spells.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

Yanked from ledgem chu~

Day 01 - What is your current favorite ship?

Battler Ushiromiya & Shannon/Sayo (Umineko no Naku Koro ni)


http://www.pixiv.net/bookmark_add.php?type=illust&illust_id=12683720

I was going to pick either SatoHika (Pokemon) or KeiRika (Higurashi no Naku Koro ni), but those are long term couplings and this is a more recent obsession. I've been with SatoHika since 2006, KeiRika since 2008, and BatShan joined the ranks in 2009, but it was very faint at the time.


http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=7995073

<see you again>
This part intrigued me during my read through EP3, but I completely forgot about it and dismissed it as something irrelevant. That is, until EP5 when Yakusoku was mentioned at the Tea Party. It made me think EP4 with Beatrice telling talking to him about his sin. Though it was after I read theories at animesuki, that i was convinced that Shannon was Beatrice. There was also EP4 when Beatrice talked English to Battler and was all "ISN'T THAT YOUR SPECIALLLTTTY?"

No one, but Shannon referenced to his English antics so it made me wonder.

There is also the fact that the <see you again> scene is kept in the anime version.


http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=12952107

I noticed that after EP6, a few BatShan images appeared over in Pixiv wondering if the promise was from Shannon. (I of course was happy to finally find some fanart of the two instead of my own drawing.) Then when EP7 hit... Oh man the fanart kept coming and coming. Of course, it has died down a bit, but I still find some fanart.

I really can't wait to read EP7 when Witch-Hunt finishes it. <3


http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=12645907

That be all for today. Back to doing homework.

JunJunJunJun.

Uwahh~ I’m here once more. I think LJ is going to be my rant place. Owo;;

Well last entry, I talked about friends stuffs. It was going well for a while since I attempted to hang out with mah peeps~

Though…  The neutral zone, just burst.

I found out interesting stuff, that I would have never learned if not for one of my friends telling me.

A volt-tackling Pika is what I am at the moment.

Apparently, I’m not trustworthy…

“Well –delete- is annoyed with –delete- now… That’s why she does not want to eat at the dining commons today.”
“…This is the first I’ve heard of this…”
“Yeah… Apparently it’s because –delete- forgot about her birthday.”
“Ah… Why didn’t see tell me this?”
“She thinks you’ll tell –delete- or something…”
“…what?...  Dude. You can just tell me to keep it a secret. ”

Uguuu~

Thus starts the weird night.

I was bored after a few friends and I got some candy. I went over to a friend’s dorm while thinking about what my other friends were doing… having more fun than I. To think this… yeah I was really bored. I was tempted to fall asleep on friend’s bed. Hah.

“We’re walkin’ over. Already outside.”

Saved by the text.

I left, saying I may come back after I sign on with friends. Ugh.

They could tell I was really out of it. I just felt. So blah. I was annoyed as well. Annoyed + Blah, I’m not sure what equals…

“I think –deleted-- likes you.“

Ah crap.

“Remember –deleted-? Well –deleted- is more seductive.”
“…what?”
“Yeah… I think –deleted- staged this. You know he and I were all close together. Well we don’t talk anymore. He logs off as soon as I log on.”
“What really?”
“Yeah, I think he likes you man. ”
“But why? He was mad at me last semester… I was surprised that he was being friendly to me…”
“I know… he kept complaining in the emails he sent me over the summer saying how he could not forgive you.”
“……he complained in the emails?...”
“Yeah… I was worried about it since you two were going to be floor mates this semester.”
“Dude…”
“He’s trying to isolate you from us. He told me that when he likes someone, he tends to isolate them. Like how I was last year.”
“…”

Dude. Wtf. Over the summer, I was worried. I was scared to email him and when I did, I made it seem like a formal letter or something… like maybe something I’d email a teacher. Ugh. So to imagine it… He staged the whole thing just to try and… “get” with me? =w=

“…He’s strategic… man… I should have realized it before. Though I’m glad I did now.”

GOD. WHY AM I NOW REMINDED OF MY HATRED FOR GEORGE OF UMINEKO?  …Am I really comparing jealousevil!George x Shannon to me? … wtf. Wtf. Man.

“I talked with –deleted- About this as well. He asked me if you two were going to date. I told him that you don’t feel that way about him.”
“……..me and him? ….. Dude. He despises Japanese. I like anime. He does not like anime… except for Sailor Moon. Me and him… aint going to work.”

So I told him what stuff he did. Tugging at my ponytail (hairstyle was like White-chan today), randomly massaging my shoulders, his legs crossing over mine when we were playing Pokemon together (He, Ruby, and I, White), playing with my bracelet (that a guy friend bought for me) when I took it off to type stuff, and that's what I remember...

Then there was also the fact about yesterday's lunch:

-friend is shifting in seat- “Hun (he usually calls everyone this)... you’re too close.”
“-laughs- Sorry I was just moving around in my seat.”
“..."  –recalls that he hasn’t said that to her-

In response…

“…yeah that seems like flirting. The only thing I can say is… don’t be alone with him.”

This is going to be hard. We live like a hallway from each other. Damn.

Now it’s going to be really awkward…

…

What is it with me coming across “relationship” problems when I do not even want to date yet.

Seriously, I just want to focus with school and my friends… not this drama.

Ok, now that I got this all out… I can go to bed and focus on homework.

There’s only so much I can take.

Twitch. Twitch. Twitch. Twitch.

On a good note, DP191 had me in tears. Hikari’s departure was splendid. I loved it. Totally pwns Haruka’s for me.  Sayonara Hikari, Konnichiwa Iris. <3

Haha… though this entry is far from over.

*sigh*

WARNING: COLLEGE RANT AHEAD

First year was fine and dandy. There were bumps ahead, but my group of friends got me through it. Without them, not sure if I would be able to stand smexy convos. Haha. Even though, those convos still… end up with me being embarrassed. There’s also how I’ve gotten to umm make friends with guys more. I get intimidated easily. Though, with guys… oh man… I fail. ;w;

Anyways…

“Dude. I know how you like hanging out with us, but… things are changing. It’s not going to be the same anymore…”

A friend told me that a week before school ended. I knew things were changing, but it didn’t hit me until the school year started once more. I took his words lightly…

We’re split.

There is also time clashes, but… there are also… I don’t know. Everyone has… taken a different mindset or something.

I admit. The first few weeks I’ve been out of it. I had been intimidated by seeing everyone again. I needed time. Yeah, on the outside, it seemed I was my ol’ perky self, but in the inside… I guess I have been bottling my emotions.

It just suddenly hit me tonight/yesterday/last night.

Our first official card night. It was fun, yet… I don’t know. I felt like we did not really connect like we used too. I tried poking one of my friends, but… no response. Usually it’s a “dude that counts as 10 pokes, which equals a tickle. Haha.”

Nothing.

I… just feel sad…

The new routine for me has been fun and ol’, but…. I miss the days of us being close. Fudge. I feel like shouting. I want to hang out with everyone again. ;w; I should… I should… I don’t know. I feel like I’m relying on this new routine too much. I need to do something.

Perhaps Sunday night, I’ll call my friends (particularly the ones I feel I’ve lost touch with…) up and ask… if they want to hang out or something… The ones I’ve lost touch with…I feel… I… I…

I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

I feel like I did something horrible to make you not want to converse with me like the semester before.

Seriously thinking of if I should cry myself to sleep…

Heh. Already tearing up as I type this…

I feel like such an idiot…

I just needed somewhere to vent… somewhere my college friends in question won’t see this…

I’m scared.

I’m scared of losing people. I should have accepted this one proposal last week… I should have just said, “Haha yeah! I can hang out! Where do you want to meet?” instead of “…Haha, I can’t. It’s pretty hot right now and I don’t want to get out.” BS. I should have… I could have… What if this. What if that. I’m such an idiot.

Dwelling on it makes me feel horrible. I haven’t hung out with said friend since last semester. I… I want to bring back the happy times. …I feel like Rika from Higurashi now… except my friends don’t die a horrible death and I have to watch them over and over.

I want to watch movies with you all again!

Please… I don’t want our friendships to crumble to pieces.

I miss you all.

It feels like high school again. Three friends became two friends… who in turn moved on to more friends.

Damn it.

One of the main reasons I still dorm is my friends. ;w;

I don’t want it to change but… it’s inevitable.

Though is it wrong to wish for those times again? Before everything went wrong and we all went our separate ways?

 

Daijoubu daijoubu... (It's alright. It's alright.)

….daijoubu ja nai….  (...it's not alright...)

Give me a character from any fandom I know at least fairly well, and I will tell you:

A) My OTP
B) The runner up
C) The anti-ship
D) My unpopular fannish opinion on said character
E) One person he/she never fell in love with, and why

Taken from Drew a.k.a d_s_unit

Taken from Tadachi <3

Rules:
Step 1: Put your MP3 player on random/shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly. (Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!)

( List~ )

So I was looking through facebook and found this note from someone on facebook. It was really touching. Since people can't see it, I decided to re post it on my LJ. :)

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Haven't used LJ in a while. Mii~ Well I decided that I might as well start a list of stuff I want since listing the day before a convention is meh. Also, I may think of things after the convention so nyaa~



1) Pokemon stuff
- That's a given though hehe. Though it would be nice to have the opportunity to buy the Pikachu stuff I missed out last year in AOD. I would also loveee to have a Zorua plushie ;w; <3



2) Higurashi stuff
- Mii~ Like Kataribanashi-hen. Fuuu~ Maybe more Keiichi/Rika figurines~ T-Though I really want a Rika Pillow. ;w; Maybe if I could find a cheap enough Higurashi Season 1 boxset! <3

3) K-On stuff
- Azunyan figures ;w; Maybe I'll get a Yui to match my Azunyan. :3 -shot- I love me some Yui/Azunyan.



4) Umineko stuff
- Figurines. Plushies. x3 Shannon~ Battler~ Maria~ Beato~ <3


Uguu~ I'll think of more later. =3=